feelin groovy

The last week has been an interesting one by far. At this exact moment I feel full with love and peace. I have come to an interesting realization that I know will help me live a happier and healthier life.

I have recently starting exercising daily. Only for about a week now, and I started because I weigh more than I have in my entire life. So the mission began with getting small and losing the weight. But I am starting to understand the important of exercise in a completely different way now. It has given me a better understanding as a whole about me, my surroundings, and its really one of the only time during the day that i give COMPLETELY to myself.

Wether I am swimming, practicing yoga, or running it has all become much more to me.

Today when I was running is when I realized this. Every time I run I try to change something to make it more challenging, either go for a long distance or at a higher speed. I started running thinking the same thing. Me in a swimsuit, its all I could think about. Most the time I have been working out it its always me putting myself down, all I can think about is how unhealthy I have let myself get and then I just feel ashamed.

But today, it started and I pictured myself in that swimsuit (my consciousness of weight is the only annoying girly trait that I have....I have always found this odd) So I kept running, and then I started to only focus on my breathing. In two steps, out two steps. It was hard, I have never been a runner because it always seems I can't get into my groove and all I felt after was sore. So I am running and running and picturing myself, and then I started picturing myself on a beach. It wasn't about the swimsuit. I could feel the sun, the sand, the breeze, the peace that comes with being at the ocean. That is where I found myself, running was on a beach. It was a moment of inner peace that I have only experienced while practicing meditation, and even then my brain won't let myself completely just be. Then when I came back to my breathing I found myself running with ease! My breathing had completely evened out. After that point it was only me pushing myself in a positive way. I ran farther and harder than I have ever done!

Working out has always been a chore for me, but I can't wait until tomorrow to do it again! Yes, I am sore, but the soreness reminds me of my accomplishment of the day, and it is almost like a trophy.

Get healthy! Not only is in going to benefit you in the obvious ways, but it is going to let yourself have a breakthrough that gives you a boost in confidence, and with confidence it becomes even easier to spread the love that you want to see in the world what a fantastic thing!


What are you doing to make yourself feel loved by YOU????


**I realize the picture of my cat has nothing to do with this blog but she makes my heart smile, so maybe she will make yours too! Who doesnt love pictures of gorgeous kittens!?