Thursday, December 3, 2009

Create

In my everlasting struggle to discover anything about what I am supposed to do with my life, I have a current hunger to create things. I plan on spending almost all of my day tomorrow browsing Hobby Lobby just to find something to help me feel like I am being worth while.

What are you creating?

I miss what the sun feels like on my face. Winter is such a sad time of year.

With being so in a rut I feel like I should almost just take a week off of work and get down to a beach over winter break to really start sorting through stuff in my head.

In other news...Did you know that NASA makes this crazy material out of silicone particles. It can hold stuff like 40,000 or something crazy like that times its weight. They can use it as a super insulator among other stuff...

It's interesting the things that we can make and yet still are too scared of change to use any of them even if it could mean saving the planet...

And lastly, this week I witnessed human nature in a negative way. I try very hard to be the love I would want reciprocated back to me. It is so important to always be kind and compassionate toward other people of the human race. I failed at that for a few minutes this week. While this happened the other party involved was so malicious that I found myself struggling very hard to deal with what they were doing to me. Why were they doing it? While I was involved in this I found myself almost obsessed with negative thoughts towards these people, and I still do. It is weird how hard it is to love people sometimes but hate spreads like wildfire and consumes everything in its path.

The important thing here is that...while I do not care to really surround myself with these people, I have come to a point where I am in control of how I handled the situation. Which is really not at all, which is the perfect way to diffuse situations with toxic people sometimes. I know that I ALWAYS have the choice to choose love over hate, and I will never ever let people who chose to say things about me, no matter what it is, let it get to me in a way where I feel I need to lash out.

Lesson learned. Choose love.


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