why wait?

I sit around my house most of my days, and to be honest I don't accomplish really anything at all during the day. This is starting to really take a tole on me I think. I don't know if it is the older I get (which is not old at all) or what the deal is but I cannot help but to only feel worthless lately.

So when I feel this way I try to pick up my guitar, but that only leads me to a few clumsy chords and then I feel not good enough..Sometimes I start some of those friendship bracelets that everyone made in grade school. That keeps my attention for probably a half hour, but at this point all I am left with is a lot of not even half way done bracelets.

What happened to the explorer in me? What happened to my imagination? And why am I so okay with doing nothing all day long.

When I was in high school ( all those years ago ) I did not picture myself as a person who would sit around all day. So I am trying to think about what I HAVE done or learned since I have graduated high school. Here are a few

1. I am not a leader nor am I a follower
2. I do not like to work in groups
3. People really do make me so uncomfortable
4. I love everything
5. I have a giant heart (and yes there is room for you)
6. My favorite feeling is the weight of my toasty cat laying on me and her purring from deep in her diaphragm
7. I am a little lazy
8. I need to see an ending to projects I start, and a meaning behind them
9. I am not happy with where I am
10. I wish i had more courage to go after what I want

There is 10...if there is anymore then its going to just be describing me. So after that list, I will now make a list of things that I want out of my life before I am 25.

1. Help on a massive scale
2. Find what tugs at my heart
3. Find a companion that I connect with spiritually as well as physically and mentally
4. Travel. Travel. Travel.
5. Quite smoking
6. Transform my diet into strictly raw foods
7. Go somewhere where no one speaks my language
8. Write a song that means something
9. Create something that gives joy to a lot of people
10. Make an effort everyday to be the love and the change that I would like to see in the world.

There ya go. I have 6 years untill I am 25 years old. So I need to get going...I am going to start on a small scale, and go to my local craft store, and I am going to create something today.

What are you creating today? Where do you see yourself in 6 years?