Thursday, February 25, 2010

one step forward

I feel sort of like I am having a midlife crisis but only less than a quarter way through it. Mostly i think this happened because since I was little I told myself I would get out of here.

Well I am certainly not out of here. I am balls deep here. Here is cold. Here is not scenic. Here is smack dab in the middle of nothing happens to anyone nowhere.

Now, while I work hard and succeed most of the time by being kind to others, always say thank you, smile at strangers, I don't ever work hard on myself.

Starting RIGHT NOW. I will not only do the former but, it is time to stop wasting seconds. No more laying in bed all day thinking of what I would be doing if I had moved away when I wanted to. This is the path that I chose to take. It is certainly taking a toll on me right now, but whatever I choose to do after this, this time period can't have been wasted.

In order for my soul to be full and happy, I have to work on being that way. Time to be a big part of being the sunshine I want to be in the world. Yes, THE WORLD, not just here. Here doesn't have to be so bad. Life is what you choose for it to be.

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